Tuesday, August 12, 2014;
The year passed fast,
and it has been so long since I last came here to pen down some thoughts.
Well, many things happened for the past few months.
But most importantly, I got a job and graduated!
Can't believe I am an adult now.
An adult who is no longer able to shrink my responsibilities,
an adult who has to face the (harsh) reality of the world.
Got a job that leaves me torn.
It's not that work is tearing me down,
but I am just not sure if this is what I want.
I have heard people saying that you either get a job that pays or a job that you really like for your first job.
But I guessed neither of them decided to come to me.
Sent many resumes in vain, until this one came along.
I wouldn't say I hate this job, but I am not sure if I will enjoy it.
I have this feeling that they think rather highly of me, and that's precisely what is stressing me out.
I hope it's true though I hope I wont disappoint.
Who wouldn't want to climb up the corporate ladder?
At least, I want to.
But sometimes, I feel like I am a fire-fighter.
Employed out of desperation to fight an upcoming fire.
I have seen how my colleague got booted out of the fighting ring.
So scary, so practical, so political.
And who knows, I might be the next one booted out.
Maybe not now, but after I have fought the fire.
A disposable fire fighter who can be used and thrown away immediately.
I wouldn't say my colleagues are bad, but somehow,
I just feel the gap, the distance, the loneliness.
It's not as easy as making friends in school.
You have to think twice before you even start speaking because you never know how they will react to it.
Scheming? Maybe, it's just survival.
Like I said, so political.
That's how you deal with the real world.
♥ The Face Of Love
11:33 PM
iAlone
我独自撑着伞,在这不属于我的世界徘徊..
我只是只迷途羔羊..
i am..
100% antiseptic
即使你已经不爱我了
即使你已经忘记我了
即使我已经从这个世界消失
我依然会爱着你
我会去找一个天使让它替
我爱你
我是 RAIN SAMANTHA.
一个超狮子座的狮子座
刁蛮任性,十足疯子
我,再也不会相信童话
; THAT'S JUST ME.
Loves-Hates
我忘了什么是爱,也不想去爱了
哭了,累了,心死了
; 或许,我应该学习怎么去恨
Wishing
; she prayed,pleaded and cried.
to remember what happiness really is..
to remember who the hell i really am..
; To Return To the Past I Once Belonged To
Friends
The Forgotten
Credits