Thursday, June 16, 2011;
Managed to get a job like finally.
Pay is not fantastic, but well, sustainable.
Shan't dwell so much on it already,
Must learn to be grateful for what i have.
Have been trying to sort some things out recently,
But it's really very tricky, esp when the other party doesnt say anything.
I am not a telepath like professor x for goodness sake.
But i can only say,
Things are not the way it seems to be,and i am not ready for something serious,neither do i want to be not treated seriously.
Contradicting? Confusing?
Yes, i know, but in short,
it just simply means i am enjoying my single life now.
LOL!
And my dad has been getting on my nerves recently.
Like really really irritating me.
And somehow, i was reminded ofthe incident 3 years back.
Like how i was almost killed by a flying chair.
This will be a scar that will live with me forever.
♥ The Face Of Love
11:49 PM
Sunday, June 12, 2011;
I did the craziest thing with the craziest person yesterday!
Uncle alan took me for a ride last night after sending jeraldin and emilie home cause he knew i didnt wanna go home.
And where we went?
We went to NTU!!!
I thought he was just gonna show me the way to drive to school,
but in the end, we ended up exploring the school.
Walked from south spine to north spine, then back from north to south.
Imagine if we were to explore NIE too!
LOL!
It was my first time going back to school during the holidays,
and the first time walking around the school at time.
Shocked to see people actually walking around at night during the holidays.
But uncle alan said it is the norm, esp when u live in hall.
Well, thinking back, i cant believe i did that,
esp when i am damn scared of the school at night.
But with uncle alan that hiongster around,
I guess there will be more of such crazy acts.
Haha!
O, and shucks,
i think i am gaining lots of weight.
DAMN!!
i need to stop eating and start exercising!!
♥ The Face Of Love
11:19 PM
Wednesday, June 8, 2011;
Some people are capable at nothing, except at spoiling people's mood.
Like damn it!
FUCK!
edited @ 11:28pm
人，往往在最失意时候看清这个世界。
现实真的太残酷了。
当你以为身边的人还会在你身边时，
他们其实早已离你而去。
到最后，只剩下你一个人默默地挣扎着。
你努力地想从谷底爬出来，认为自己一定能做到。
若幸运女神眷顾，你将能成功爬出谷底，找到自己的春天。
若幸运女神也离你而去，你将会一次又一次地跌回谷底，一直到你放弃为止。
到最后，即使有一天，有人发现了你，并鼓励你继续往上爬，你也只会自暴自弃，
因为你已经对自己失去了信心，你再也不敢相信自己，更无法相信任何人。
或许，这就是现在的我。
一个对自己没有信心，也无法相信自己，更不相信任何人的女孩。
或许，这才是正真的我。
我一直努力地从谷底爬出，原以为自己快要成功了，才发现是老天爷在和我玩捉迷藏。
或许是老天爷知道我累了，想要给我一些呼吸的空间吧。
毕竟，我也藏在面具背后很久了。
不要问我多久，因为我自己也忘了。
我一直告诉自己要坚强，不管发生什么事都不能哭。
我做到了，却在无意间觉得自己已经变成了一个没有感情的人，一个没有喜怒哀乐的人。
我发现自己失去了自我。
因为我一直相信，只有眼泪和悲伤才能为一个人注入生命，让他变得完整，
而我却因为放弃而失去了它们。。
♥ The Face Of Love
10:41 PM
Tuesday, June 7, 2011;
Watched Kungfu panda 2 today!
Really enjoyed the movie, except that the threatre was very very cold.
Thanks uncle a for lending me his arms and rubbing my hands to give me warmth.
Greatly appreciated!
=)
Had dinner at NYNY today.
Uncle a ordered a mocha float,
and as usual, his float went into my tummy ^^V
My smoked salmon kiss-a-dear (quesadilla) was lovely!
Enjoyed it a lot except that i would like my cheese to be more melted,
if u get what i mean.
But overall, I have to admit that NYNY serve rather nice food.
Ok, i dunno why i am writing all this,
But I really had a great time today.
=)
♥ The Face Of Love
11:11 PM
Thursday, June 2, 2011;
I am still bored.
So bored that i am hamtam-ing all the jobs i can find.
Just let me get a job! I freaking need a life!
O wells.
At leasst i still have aikido.
Grading is coming! Eeeks!
Sensei say i can go, time for me to go.
It really means a lot, boosted my confidence.
Praying hard that the examiners not in bad mood
=X
Gonna meet darlingg jeraldin for lunch tmr.
So happy, just me and her.
Wahaha!
Ok, before i go on bad-mouthing anyone,
i shall stop writing now.
Hope 老天爷 takes pity on poor me and offers me a good-paying job soon.
I dun mind APPLE if the pay is above 1.2k.
I swear i will get internships next time,
then i wont be hanging around aimlessly like now.
>.<
♥ The Face Of Love
11:50 PM
iAlone
我独自撑着伞,在这不属于我的世界徘徊..
我只是只迷途羔羊..
i am..
100% antiseptic
即使你已经不爱我了
即使你已经忘记我了
即使我已经从这个世界消失
我依然会爱着你
我会去找一个天使让它替
我爱你
我是 RAIN SAMANTHA.
一个超狮子座的狮子座
刁蛮任性，十足疯子
我，再也不会相信童话
; THAT'S JUST ME.
Loves-Hates
我忘了什么是爱，也不想去爱了
哭了，累了，心死了
; 或许，我应该学习怎么去恨
Wishing
; she prayed,pleaded and cried.
to remember what happiness really is..
to remember who the hell i really am..
; To Return To the Past I Once Belonged To
Friends
The Forgotten
Credits