Monday, March 30, 2009;
DAY 6
it's already day 6..
and i still haven't heard from dear..
well..only thing his mum thought of..
"Dun tell me he finished his $28 value already.."
haiz..not that i have given up..
but i choose not to think too much..
choosing to think positive and all..
but it's inveitable[=X] that i am still a little tiny winy worried..
and i do miss him a lot..
BLEH..
I WANT WEDNESDAY TO COME ASAP..!!!
so that i can see him asap..!!
and hopefully there will be sms-es from him tomorrow..=)
anyway..i didn't complete 2.4 run today..
haiz..couldn't take it..
air was not going in..and my vision was kind of blurry..=X
so yea..gonna have to run another day..
and hopefully i will be able to get through..
o..and met up with kns dear today..haha..
thanks fot the subway..
anda anda..we went to make some sand-candle thinggy today..
hehe..mine got 2 cute little pigs inside..
shall upload it's photo next time if i managed to take a picture of it..
haha..xp
oo..and it's super duper wuper fun la..
although a bit childish..haha..
but i like it..makes me happy..x)
i want go again..!!!
hahahahahahahaha..x)
ok..that's all i guess..
and really have fun with kns dear today..
hahaha..xp
hmmm..rubik's competition tomorrow..
hopes all goes well..
and hopefully will get to catch shopaholic and collect my stuff tomorrow..
well..we will see..
moods affects everything..x.x
oooooo..
april got lots of nice movie coming up..!!
but i am broke..zzZzz..=.=
and me want me headphones........
♥ The Face Of Love
10:33 PM
10:33 PM
Sunday, March 29, 2009;
DAY 5
still..i didn't sleep well..
So ya..still no updates from bert..
But yea..like xiang xiang said and datou sort of sang..
"think positive..always look on the bright side of life.."
So yea..i am trying to think positive..
and like kns dear said..
"no news from teacher = good news"
so yea..haha..
anyway..bert will be back on wednesday..
so yea..NO PORBLEM de..
He will be back..and his domokun shirt..!!!
still wavering between XL and XXL..
Haha..xp
O..and today was bernard's last day..
Damn sad lorz..T.T
bernard is a nice guy can..
but haiz..the nice people are leaving..=X
including me..xp
[话中有话]
Ok..tomorrow 2.4..
Damn xian..hope i dun faint halfway..=X
and meeting kns dear after that..
hahaha..lalala..
Ok..i am going crazy..
haven't do math and history tutorial yet..
Damn Shit..but nvm..dun care..xp
AND I HEREBY DECLARE I AM BROKE..!!
praying super hard.
coutning down to wed.
♥ The Face Of Love
10:38 PM
10:38 PM
Saturday, March 28, 2009;
DAY 4
haven't been sleeping well for the past few days..
keep having weird dreams..=X
It has been 2 days since i got any updates from dear..
nothing at all..not even his mum got any updates..
Shit..this is really very scary..
because i have totally no idea what happened to him..
It's like a sudden MIA..
no news..no replies to my sms-es..what-so-ever..
Damn worried..why suddenly like that..??
Did something happen to him..??
But if something did happen to him..
his teacher would inform his mum and his mum would tell me de what..
Or did he forgot to bring his charger..then phone batt dead..
But quite impossible what..can borrow phone de ma..
Maybe no reception..??
But how come he could sms me for the 1st 2 days..??
Or is it his phone or/and my phone go kuku.??
Then cannot recieve each other's sms-es..??
But..he would have sms-ed his mum when i didn't reply de right..??
And we could still sms each other in the 1st 2 days de ma..
DAMN.
this is so frustrating..
what the fuck is happening..??
he will come back on wed in one piece de right..??
SHIT.
Ok..maybe i should stop imagining things..
Nothing will happen de..NOTHING..
My dear will come back on wed as promised..
he knows we are all waiting for him..
and when he comes back..
i will never let him leave my sight again..
EVER AGAIN..
O God..
please..let all this end..
please let me wake up tomorrowand everything will be just fine..
and the 1st thing i see on my phone is dear's sms-es ok..??
Please..PLEASE..please..
praying hard.
♥ The Face Of Love
11:31 PM
11:31 PM
Friday, March 27, 2009;
DAY 3
Rather sad to say..
Today's not a good day for me..
I wasn't able to get that button on my watch fixed..
Cause there wasn't any parts available..
fashion watches..cheap things that people throw away once spoilt..
that's what the guy said..
But to me..it something i really cherish..
Something memorable..
Something that means a lot a lot to me..
But somehow..i am just so useless..
Unable to protect something that means so much..
Then when i was eating at pizza hut..
i thought of you again..
Wondering if you had eaten your meals..
Wondering if you had eaten well..
Wondering what you were eating over there..
When i was on the cab...
I cuddled your bag..and tears started to drop silently..
Your mum smsed me for your updates..
and i realized i could't stop missing you..
even though i tried very hard not to..
even though i tried to distract myself..
I didn't recieve any update from you today..
not even 1 sms even though you promised 2..
i smsed you..but there wasn't a single reply..
you idiot..you broke your promise again..
at a time like that..
how could you..??
Dun you know that i am worried about you..??
Dun you know that i am wondering what happened to you..??
I forced a smile on my face..
hoping that i would stop crying..
but somehow..i can't..
because i am still crying deep down in my heart..
i am an idiot.
♥ The Face Of Love
11:55 PM
11:55 PM
Thursday, March 26, 2009;
DAY 2
Dear is obviously not in Cambodia for a holiday..
Tough work under the hot sun..
And having sunburns all over..esp neck and arms..
Like he said.."Chao da le.."
Poor dear..Heart pain..
Should have gotten him sunblock..=X
How could i have forgot about it..??
But i know he's not sympathising with himself..
Wondering what he has got himself into..
He's a strong guy..x)
"Tired..Doing hardwork but fun.. :) "
My dear very pro de ok..??
He helped repair and built a house made up of bamboo and banana leaves today..
Haha..x)
WAY TO GO DEAR..!!!
JIAYOU..x)
But still..i am not feeling that great..
I still miss him although it wasn't as bad as yesterday..
But i guess life still has to go on..
And i have to learn to be independent..
Like they said..
i am really too dependent on him..=X
Another reason that kept me down..
I lost one of the button on my watch..
And i bushed it off my bag unknowingly..Stupidly..
Who could ever experience such stupid things except for stupid me..??
But nvm..i will still wear it everyday..
And try to get it fixed..HOPEFULLY..
But i still have his bag with me..
So yea..not too bad..YEA..
Ok..me tired..
so me saying random things le..
so me want sleep le..
so me say goodnights..x)
♥ The Face Of Love
10:46 PM
10:46 PM
Wednesday, March 25, 2009;
DAY 1
Dear has flown to cambodia today..
reached there in one piece at 1049h..x)
and i really miss him a lot although it has only been less than 24 hours..
Really..i miss him a lot a lot a lot..
I know i am an idiot..
Just 8 days..and yet i am here crying like he's leaving me forever..
Seriously..i didn't expect myself to miss him that much too..
i didn't expect myself to cry over this..
But somehow..i am..uncontrollably..
even though i promised him not too..
I tried to keep myself busy so that i wouldn't think of him..
So that i wouldn't miss him so much..
But no matter how hard i tried..
When night falls..
when things gets peaceful and quiet..
when i am alone..
I start to think of you and miss you again..
and yea..those tears start flowing again..
dancing on the keypad of baby..
Ok fine..I AM AN IDIOT..
I had so much i wanted to tell you this morning..
But i couldn't..because you were going to catch your flight already..
while i was trying hard to fight back my tears..
Silly aren't i..??
How i wish you were by my side now..
Hopefully..
things will get better tomorrow..
Hopefully..
it's late..i am tired..
but i am still waiting for you..
for that sms you promised me..
to let me know you are fine..
p.s imissyou.iloveyou.
♥ The Face Of Love
11:23 PM
11:23 PM
Sunday, March 22, 2009;
HYPER-VENTILATING AGAIN.
thanks for the agitation.
♥ The Face Of Love
10:56 PM
10:56 PM
Saturday, March 21, 2009;
hyper-ventilation.
well..that's what happened to me..
can't breathe but in fact i am breathing too fast..
under too much stress..ANXIETY
had to breathe through a paper bag..
zZz =.=
thanks corine for acc-ing me..
loves x)
and sorry for making you worried..
but your shoulder was very comfy..x)
ok..credits to stupid dear too..
although he was the one who triggered it..
bleh..
well..mc at home..ALONE.
and i am so freaking bored..=X
i can't sleep cause i have slept for 13 hours..!!!
OMG..
♥ The Face Of Love
1:51 PM
1:51 PM
Thursday, March 19, 2009;
i think i am gettting fatter..
all thanks to dear that i am being fed so well..xp
good food swimming in my stomach..
hehe..赚到..!!!
i want stayover again..xp
well..i think i am happy..
*hopefully stupid dear dun dao me again*
although he is still stuck with his bball..
but i think i 看开 le ba..
no point getting angry anyway..=X
it's his passion ma..i can make do without him for a few hours ba..
*trying in progress*
dunno why but feeling a little more motivated to study..
though i still have tons of holiday homework to finish..
*eeks..i am still blogging..=X*
well..also trying to like co..
maye i still complain a little..or a lot..
but just try to like lorz..maybe life will be easier..
o..o..and i saw laoma at amk hub today..
sorry that i forgot about your bday la.
memory space not enough..
information leaking..=X
and also thanks to dear again.
i ran all the way home..
and my parents were like what happened..=.=
and my bro even suggested me being chased by dog..
zZzz..=.=
ok..i am just being random today..
maybe becausse i am happy..
maybe cause i learn to 看开 already..??
haha..o well..i think i better go do some homework le..
hopefully can finish my 创作..x)
何必执着?
退一步，海阔天空。。
加油吧！李依玲！！
♥ The Face Of Love
10:43 PM
10:43 PM
Tuesday, March 17, 2009;
they dun understand at all..
not understanding that they have screwed up my life..
yet..they are saying sarcastic things that gets on my nerves..
that's why i kept on running away..
i rather stay out..seriously..
this doesn't feel like home..
can't theyy just leave alone..
just let me do what i want..
give my some space..
what do i really want..?
i asked myself..but i never got the answer..
maybe just to walk in the rain..
and have some peace to myself..
♥ The Face Of Love
11:01 PM
11:01 PM
Saturday, March 14, 2009;
it's kind of scary thinking back when it was you and me..
we were happy until you decided to leave me..
i struggled to stand on my feet..
i struggled to forget you..
i struggled not to love you..
i tried..i cried..until finally i couldn't feel anymore..
but somehow when i am able to face you now..
you had to say those words to me..
you want to be part of my life again..
seriously..i dunno whether i should thank you for saying those words to me..
but all i know is that..
it's all too late..you will never be a part of my life anymore..
maybe we are just leaving in different worlds afterall..
i hurt myself because of you..
i stopped feeling because of you..
i stopped loving because of you..
but i finally took myself away..
i have moved on..
maybe you should too..
♥ The Face Of Love
11:26 PM
11:26 PM
Thursday, March 12, 2009;
When you feel that it's worthless no matter how hard you tried..
Maybe it's time to walk out of it..
When you feel that it's time to just forget everything..
Maybe it's time too stop trying to remember the past..
Maybe.
it's time not to feel anymore..
i just want to be taken away..
♥ The Face Of Love
5:19 PM
5:19 PM
Monday, March 9, 2009;
spent the whole afternoon with panda dear today..
haven't spent so much time with him since..
did we ever spend so much time together..??
let's spend more time together like that in future ok..??
i just want you to be by my side..x)
loveya..&hearts..
damn..coughing like crazy now..
xian-ed.
♥ The Face Of Love
11:00 PM
11:00 PM
Sunday, March 8, 2009;
angry angry fucking angry..
dun ask me why i am angry..
because i fucking dunno why..
and idiots..please dun count the number of "fuck" i have in my post..
if you have nothing to do..just go fuck the wall..
throat isn't any better for the past few days..
my voice is getting terrible day by day..
yesterday i sounded like a frog.
today i sound like a fucking toad..
like thanks..FUCK..!!!
and now that i am sick..
there are so many restrictions to eating..
no heaty food and blah blah blah.
but the worst thing is..there is nothing to eat at home..
not even bread..!!!
fuck man..sick but there is nothing for me to eat..
while they are happily eating stuff that i cannot eat..
what the fuck..
the fucking weather is damn hot today..
and it has added on to my anger..
shit man..
and i just dun want to watch movie tomorrow..
fuck..i hate this world.
i hate to be sickk..!!!
♥ The Face Of Love
8:26 PM
8:26 PM
Friday, March 6, 2009;
well throat is still as bad..
my voice is damn sexy now..haha..
Ptm at my bro's school again.
and his teacher said that my skirt was too short..
zZz..=.=
what's wrong man..??
why is it that people always complain that my skirt is too short..??
zZz.=.=
; all i want is you to spend more time with me..??
just a little more time..at least to sms me..
but apparently..
i guess it's time..
at least i think i know what to do now..
希望越大，失望越高，
我很明白。
♥ The Face Of Love
11:13 PM
11:13 PM
Thursday, March 5, 2009;
Apparantly..i am still sick..
fever is gone..hopefully it won't come back..
muscle strain was kind of better..at least not as jelly..
but throat is getting worse..
it's practically killing me..
even though i drown myself with like 5-6 litres of watata today..
haiz..think it's going to worsen tomorrow..
think drinking would confirm bea areal problem tomorrow..=X
i can't seem to find the reason why nothing is able to soothe that damn throat..!!
it seems as though it's waterproof now..
no matter how cold cold sweet sweet watata i drink..
it's useless..!!!
sobs..someone save me..sobs sobs..
T.T
♥ The Face Of Love
10:42 PM
10:42 PM
Wednesday, March 4, 2009;
HAPPY BELATED BITHDAY KNS DEAR..x) Dun emo le ok..??LOVE YA..MUACKS..x)
sick again..how great can that be..jelly legs..so i was practically limping..TOOT..muscle strain..i couldn't feel my legs..Only felt pain..T.Tthen there was fever and sore throat plus aching stomach muscle..zZz..haiz..T.T
whined a lot to panda dear..i think made him worried..wahaha..but is really pain and torturous de lorz..REALLY lorz..but i want to recover faster..FRIDAY..!!meow meow meow..xp
went hougang polyclinic..Shit man..Damn..should have gone AMK de instead..kena a fucked up doctor who expects me to go for cross country straight after i recover..thanks ah..TOOT..
Well..whatever..i am gonna recover de..SUSHI..!!!
ok..off to sleep..no..take temperature first..xpnights people..x)
sick again..how great can that be..
whined a lot to panda dear..
went hougang polyclinic..
Well..whatever..i am gonna recover de..
ok..off to sleep..
♥ The Face Of Love
10:31 PM
10:31 PM
Monday, March 2, 2009;
Actually didn't wanna blog cause i wanted to let cover boy stay longer..
but apparently..i realized my panda dear was more important..
haha..xp
Well..met him today after school..
and yea..that dumb dumb..
purposely walk so slow when he saw him..
zZz..=.=
ok..the main thing is he really looked like a kid..
With my backpack and my hp with that doraemon lanyak around his neck..
o..and the way he eats..
and the way he was so fascinated by the kinder surprise toy..
OMG..super cute..machiam my little brother..
*shit..it means i am old..=X*
should have brought my camera along..
but nevertheless..he is still my cute panda..
and i love him..
although i hate him too..xp
and crispy mushroom rocks man..!!
GOSH..i miss xiaodi so muchhhYYY...!!
emo period back again..
even panda realized it..
♥ The Face Of Love
11:25 PM
11:25 PM
Sunday, March 1, 2009;
Due to high demand for my cover boy..
i had no choice but to update..=X
so this post is gonna be quite picture-ry..
Continue scrolling down at your own risk..!!
*note: btw..i had no time to come up with a solo album for datou..
because it is so tedious..so just find him yourself..xp
"sleeping prince"..
PSP-ing
VS copying math notes..
Vs reading flying fox..
Staff dinner @ serangoon gardens..
Ruijia the liuqin..
me and my ah bu..x)
me and ponkim
and my beloved YULI..!!!
Spot the biggest head..*it's so obvious*
rejecting the proposal..
X3333
the gays..zZz..
Emo datou..!!!
Singapore flyer..
Camwhore..the only way to past time..
Corine and xiaer
the couple shirts..x)
Hweekay and me..
Corine and the drama queen yuting..
yuting corine bixia me xinrong and hweekay..
Weehee..so small..xp
the lost tourist..
how the IR would look like..*sneak preview*
Well..finally finished uploading the pictures..x)Singapore flyer was FUN..!!
Btw..time now is 9:59Pm..imagine how long i took to finish this post..zZz..=.=
"sleeping prince"..
PSP-ing
VS copying math notes..
Vs reading flying fox..
Staff dinner @ serangoon gardens..
Ruijia the liuqin..
me and my ah bu..x)
me and ponkim
and my beloved YULI..!!!
Spot the biggest head..*it's so obvious*
rejecting the proposal..
X3333
the gays..zZz..
Emo datou..!!!
Singapore flyer..
Camwhore..the only way to past time..
Corine and xiaer
the couple shirts..x)
Hweekay and me..
Corine and the drama queen yuting..
yuting corine bixia me xinrong and hweekay..
Weehee..so small..xp
the lost tourist..
how the IR would look like..*sneak preview*
Well..finally finished uploading the pictures..x)Singapore flyer was FUN..!!
Btw..time now is 9:59Pm..
imagine how long i took to finish this post..
zZz..=.=
♥ The Face Of Love
7:59 PM
7:59 PM