Thursday, April 30, 2009;
as seen..somehow..
some people just like to cheapen themselves..
in short..SLUTS..
and since i am already at my limits..
i shall grant her her wish which is the consequences of irritating me despite my warnings..
FUCK OFF..YOU FUCKING BITCH..
seriously..you really are an idiot who knows nothing..
really..and yet..
you stupidly think you are clever when you obviously aren't..
you know what..i really pity you..
but still..fuck off..
♥ The Face Of Love
10:58 PM
10:58 PM
Wednesday, April 29, 2009;
200th post
OMG.
i have been driven crazy by a crazy conductor.
but my cello-bass section rocks.
one for all..all for one.
i know this is disppointing..
i know this is not what you guys want..
but i know you guys did your best..
and that is enough..
because no matter what..
you guys are still the best to me..x)
& where's the car..??
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i realized it still hurts..
tears just roll down uncontrollably..
♥ The Face Of Love
10:57 PM
10:57 PM
Tuesday, April 28, 2009;
seriously..last warning..
dun blame me when those 'f' words start coming out..
because you are seriously getting on my nerves..
I MEAN IT..IDIOT
SO CAN YOU GUYS PLEASE SHUT UP..??
STOP ADDING ON TO MY BURDEN BECAUSE I AM LOSING IT..
I DUN EVEN KNOW WHAT I AM THINKING..
I DUN EVEN KNOW WHAT I AM GONNA DO..
SO JUST LEAVE ME ALONE..!!
damn..tired.. i am tired..tired of eveything..
i hate this world..this life..
i hate myself..
♥ The Face Of Love
10:28 PM
10:28 PM
Monday, April 27, 2009;
some people just dun understand simple english..
or should i say some people are just pests..
i mean look who's talking..
saying that seniors are unfriendly when you the junior is obviously being hostile right from the start..
i mean if you really have no idea when the hell is going on..
if you haven't been through what we have been through..
just shut up because you really know nothing..
seriously..can't you just use that pea-sized brain of yours to think.??
consequences are the follow ups of causes..
why would i not like something for no reason..??
obviously it's not like i have nothing to do..
in fact..i have tonnes of stuff to keep myself busy with..
and fyi..i am not as unfriendly as you..
because i dun go to people's blog..and start commenting on others..
and of course..when i do..
i aim it at the person..not at something else..
and in this case..it's me..not string orchestra..
and if you choose to aim at string instead..
you really are being the UNFRIENDLY one..
because innocent victims are being dragged into the picture for nothing..
GET IT...??
and in future..if you wanna comment..
WRITE YOUR NAME..
tell me who you are..敢作敢当..
dun use names like junior..
or even worse..passer-by..
cause if you wanna do something like insulting or "shooting" others..
please for goodness sake..do it with guts..
hiding behind the curtain only tells me that you are a COWARD.
and o ya..thanks for spoiling my mood.
idiots.
♥ The Face Of Love
10:37 PM
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Sunday, April 26, 2009;
THIS IS MY BLOG..MY LIFE..
I SAY WHAT I WANT..
I HAVE MY RIGHTS TO EXPRESS WHAT I FEEL IN MY SPACE..
IF YOU ARE UNHAPPY..
JUST GET YOUR ARSE OUT OF HERE..
CAUSE YOU FUCKING HAVE NO IDEA WHAT IS HAPPENING..
IDIOTS.
HATE ME ALL YOU WANT..
BUT I BELIEVE I WON'T LIKE YOU TOO..
BTW..THERE'S SOMETHING CALLED DELETE.
♥ The Face Of Love
10:26 PM
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Saturday, April 25, 2009;
i know this sounds wrong..
but why must they always take kaijie away from me..??
first qu feng..now ding..
idiots..!!!
and now..i freak out whenever i hear these three words..
"大提琴"
i realized i lost the courage..
maybe i fought too hard..??
the 2 emails are still laying in my inbox..
the 2 emails by you..
♥ The Face Of Love
10:46 PM
10:46 PM
Thursday, April 23, 2009;
i will get through this..
like how i got through the other time..
♥ The Face Of Love
11:09 PM
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Wednesday, April 22, 2009;
i know i am being evil..
but i really dun see anything wrong with laughing at nan chiau co for getting silver..
Jiayou Nan Chiau String Orchestra..x)
and maybe nyco too..
♥ The Face Of Love
11:25 PM
11:25 PM
Monday, April 20, 2009;
had the afternoon to myself..
quite nice to be slacking around..
especially like a time like that..
but some bloody fuckers have to spoil my day..
seriously fucked up..
so what if you are a nurse..??
i dun fucking care..so fuck off..
bitch.
trying.
♥ The Face Of Love
10:34 PM
10:34 PM
Friday, April 17, 2009;
&hearts the night..
the night sky is beautiful..
♥ The Face Of Love
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Wednesday, April 15, 2009;
too many things happened recently..
i really dunno how to put it..
but well..i am sick again..
AGAIN..or should i say it didn't recover..??
Haiz..
i can't help but think it's all fate right..??
it's all predestined that my life has to go this way..
all screwed up..
i mean i can't control it no matter how hard i try..
they just come and go..walk in and out..
while i can only stare blankly..
not having the ability to stop myself from going through all these..
not having the ability to fight for what i want..
it feels like fate really treats me as a bloody sucker..
a damn bloody sucker he can fool around with..
when you are lost..losing all that damn confidence..
he gives you hope..lets you regain your confidence..
then when you finally managed to regain that damn confidence..
he do things to make you fall again..
the cycle goes round and round and round..
esp to this bloody sucker..
ME..
he's having great fun..
while i am here suffering under his hands..
i really miss those days..
though some haven't walked into my life yet..
but i still yearn for those days..
those days in secondary 4..
tough but sweet..
that's why it's always sweet 16 right..??
♥ The Face Of Love
4:28 PM
4:28 PM
Saturday, April 11, 2009;
you are right.
while i am always wrong.
finewhatever.
i can't wait for that dream to come true.
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i can't find it anymore..
i really can't find it anymore..
=(
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失望、绝望、无奈
♥ The Face Of Love
11:05 PM
11:05 PM
Friday, April 10, 2009;
change.
it's scary.
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i have the sudden urge to pool..
just feel like picking it up again..
♥ The Face Of Love
10:44 PM
10:44 PM
Thursday, April 9, 2009;
April is movie month..
Nice movies are finally out..
but seriously..why april..??
when people are busy with studies..
zZz..=.=
DIE DIE MUST WATCH.
Fast and Furious 4..!!!
X-men Origins: Wolverine..!!!
aand yea..
i am kind of glad that things are somehow moving on..
at least things are sorted out..
but still trying to piece eveything up..
hopefully..things will go as prayed..=X
but i freaking hate that big fat 'B'..
why the fuck are we so suay..??
we put in 101% effort..
but somehow..
it's always luck that determines it all..
it's damn unfair..
♥ The Face Of Love
10:56 PM
10:56 PM
Wednesday, April 8, 2009;
we were both young, when i first saw you.
i close my eyes and the flashback starts-
i'm standing there, on a balcony in summer air.
i see the lights; see the party, the ball gowns.
i see you make your way through the crowd-
you say hello, little did i know...
that you were romeo, you were throwing pebbles-
and my daddy said "stay away from juliet"-
and i was crying on the staircase-
begging you please don't go...
and i said...
romeo take me somewhere, we can be alone.
i'll be waiting; all there's left to do is run.
you'll be the prince and i'll be the princess,
it's a love story, baby, just say yes.
so i sneak out to the garden to see you.
we keep quiet, because we're dead if they knew-
so close your eyes... escape this town for a little while.
oh, oh.
cause you were romeo - i was a scarlet letter,
and my daddy said "stay away from juliet" -
but you were everything to me-
i was begging you, please don't go-
and i said...
romeo take me somewhere, we can be alone.
i'll be waiting; all there's left to do is run.
you'll be the prince and i'll be the princess.
it's a love story, baby, just say yes-
romeo save me, they're trying to tell me how to feel.t
his love is difficult, but it's real.
don't be afraid, we'll make it out of this mess.
it's a love story, baby, just say yes.
oh, oh.
i got tired of waiting.
wondering if you were ever coming around.
my faith in you was fading-
when i met you on the outskirts of town.
and i said...
romeo save me, i've been feeling so alone.
i keep waiting, for you but you never come.
is this in my head, i don't know what to think-
he knelt to the ground and pulled out a ring and said...
marry me juliet, you'll never have to be alone.
i love you, and that's all i really know.
i talked to your dad -- go pick out a white dress
it's a love story, baby just say... yes.
oh, oh, oh, oh, oh.
we were both young when i first saw you.~
love story-taylor swift
♥ The Face Of Love
11:13 PM
11:13 PM
Tuesday, April 7, 2009;
believe.
♥ The Face Of Love
11:01 PM
11:01 PM
Monday, April 6, 2009;
hyperventilation.
stressed up..anxiety..
studies..stress..
dsappointing..
cca..syf..
if i dun make the mark..
everything is over..
love..relationship..
i tried not to think..but i can't..
i am scared that i will lose you now..
i dunno how to go on without you..
i dunno if i will screwed up my a's..my life because of this..
if everything was the same..
this wouldn't be happening..
it's all my fault..i didn't cherish you..
it's all my fault..if only i..
the only thing i can do is to cry and cry and cry non stop..
it feels like depression..
i dunno..i feel so tired..
i need a break..
i want to run away..
i need you to assure me that everything is fine..
i want to feel you by my side..
i am not as strong as you people think..
sometimes..i just wanna lose my memory..
maybe get involed in some stupid accident..
suffer a concussion..
then i can forget everything..
then i can worry about nothing..
that will be nice..right..??
♥ The Face Of Love
10:37 PM
10:37 PM
Saturday, April 4, 2009;
i looked at my block test results..
only word to say..
DISAPPOINTING.
this is not i wanted..
really..not i wanted..
♥ The Face Of Love
11:19 PM
11:19 PM
Friday, April 3, 2009;
Deleting memory in progress..
Re-installing in progress..
trying to piece up everything..
still..i am trying my best..
心里好乱。。
顿时，我失去了方向。。
i suddenly miss you guys so much..
even though the only one i am supposed to rely on is--myself..
♥ The Face Of Love
9:50 PM
9:50 PM
Thursday, April 2, 2009;
i really didn't expect things to turn out this way..
just 8 days..8 days..
i really dunno why is this happening..
i just want all this to be a dream..
a dream that will disappear after i wake up..
i just want you to tell me it's just a joke..
a just a stupid joke..and that everything was fine..
everything is the same as it was before..
i prayed for your sms..
but what met me was disappointment..
it wasn't you..it wasn't..
i really dun want to let go..
i dun want to..i can't..
you promised me..
it hurts so much..so much that i really feel like dying..
i am just an idiot..
心头的血一滴一滴地淌着。。
就如泪一滴一滴地掉下。。
我真的放不下。。
我真的好没用。。
我真的很恨自己。。
能不能回到过去。。
我真的很爱你。。
我只想闭上眼。。
醒来后。。一切都只是一场梦。。
你还会遵守承诺。。
一直陪在我身边。。
♥ The Face Of Love
8:57 PM
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