Thursday, January 28, 2010;
What are friends for?
Actually,i doubt i can give the answer to it.
Everyone is drifting apart,
even those whom i hold dear to me.
I had always thought that i would be able to rely on them,
so heck care if i only have a handful of friends,
cause they are all i need.
But it seems like..
it's just not the same anymore.
Disappointed?
Yes,I am.
But who can i blame?
I was the naive one.
Too much things have happened recently,
i have already lost the ability to stop and think.
I kept telling myself that things will get better,
but is god really that nice?
at least,i dun see it that way.
not to me at least.
what else can i do?
except to keep moving on?
maybe i will just shut myself up on the way.
cause i am too tired of tears and disappointment.
maybe one day,i won't be me anymore.
;thought i saw you today.
that someone was holding on to someone.
i felt my heart skip a beat,
i thought i forgot how to breathe.
If that was really you,
i think,
i would have died on the spot.
♥ The Face Of Love
12:06 AM
Friday, January 15, 2010;
realized i have been doing late night bloggings recently.
anyway,i not am even sure whether i will still have time to blog from next week onwards.
=X
just an update of life.
been jobhunting,and i have finally fouund a decent paying job.
but i wished i have asked yonghin or david earlier.
cause they got lots of lobangs and i wouldn't have to go through so much trouble.
about my job:
good pay.checked.
5 days week.checked.
office working hours.checked.
normal working environment. blank.
acutally i am gonna work in some welfare home but hopefully,
everything will be fine which i believe will be.
i just have to get through this 3 months.
jiayou to myself!
=)
admin job in the day,
tuition at night.
part time jobs during the weekends.
i am such a money grabber!
work like free!
but oh well, at least i would have time for gym?
hopefully.
and not forgetting the events that are coming up.
like OMG.
went shopping at bugis for the past 2 days.
and bought 2 tops yesterday,
which included 1 hoodie tee *so happy!*
plus a pair of red pumps/mary jane @ 9.90!
i really like the design cause it's cute!.
but i wonder when will be the next time i can go shopping again.
and i still wanna get my shoes..
acutally,i really dunno what's my real purpose for making myself so busy.
to earn money,
or just to keep myself busy.
i choose to belive it's the former but apparently,
it seems to be the latter.
i just can't forget things easily right?
getting things out of my mind,
or should i say getting you out of my mind seems impossible,
or maybe forgetting things i hold dear to me aren't my forte?
well,i dunno.
i admit,i am confused and i do still miss you a lot even though you have been gone for so long and living a life of your own now.
i guess i just need more time,
so my new year resolution,
to forget you doesn't sound that bad right?
nonetheless, i will forget you one day.
i will.
WOW!
haven't typed such a long post for so long already.
and i just hope i can stop crying and getting frustrated so easily already.
dimenticato? i just can't...
buaizz people..
♥ The Face Of Love
12:37 AM
Sunday, January 10, 2010;
kind of miss the life of a bee,
cause i am practically wasting my life now.
aimless,meaningless,lifeless.
i can't believe i am struggling with powerpoint,
not on the skills,but on how to present it.
Geez!
everything is in a mess and guess what,
it's due on monday!
BOOHOO!
=(
gonna miss the meeting again................
♥ The Face Of Love
12:19 AM
Thursday, January 7, 2010;
What am i doing here?
i dunno too.
insomnia i guess.
Maybe that explains why i am putting on the pounds?
Argh,super frustrated.
Esp when i look myself in the mirror.
motivation is much needed.
i miss gym but i can't seem to drag myself there anymore.
and temptation of wife is so tempting.
=(
Total failure!
Sucker in life!
6 days have passed or to be exact,7.
And xiaodi has gone to NS *BOOHOO=(*
but,
Belated Happy New Year by the way.
May 2010 be a better year!
for me,at least.
♥ The Face Of Love
12:01 AM
iAlone
我独自撑着伞,在这不属于我的世界徘徊..
我只是只迷途羔羊..
i am..
100% antiseptic
即使你已经不爱我了
即使你已经忘记我了
即使我已经从这个世界消失
我依然会爱着你
我会去找一个天使让它替
我爱你
我是 RAIN SAMANTHA.
一个超狮子座的狮子座
刁蛮任性，十足疯子
我，再也不会相信童话
; THAT'S JUST ME.
Loves-Hates
我忘了什么是爱，也不想去爱了
哭了，累了，心死了
; 或许，我应该学习怎么去恨
Wishing
; she prayed,pleaded and cried.
to remember what happiness really is..
to remember who the hell i really am..
; To Return To the Past I Once Belonged To
Friends
The Forgotten
Credits