Sunday, April 21, 2013;
True enough, I woke up with a motivation to fight the other day.
Managed to really sit down and sort out the notes for beauty and myths.
It was nice and comforting to see myself still fighting hard.
but for the next few days, it became quite disastrous.
思想史让我很想死..
413 wasnt any better..
Guess, i could only pin my hopes on tmr.
Hopefully the lightbulb will appear,
and enlightened i shall be..
♥ The Face Of Love
11:43 PM
Wednesday, April 17, 2013;
Have been awhile seen I last came to this little space.
It had been a stressful 3 days week semester.
Ironic I know, but I guess it's the leveling up of stress level.
Everything is just so eveywhere.
Emotional control just keeps getting from bad to worse.
I cant remember how many times i broke down this semester, but i guess it's a record.
At least, it's a record that i broke down in school during lesson.
Nothing can describe the frustrations, the fucked-up-ness.
Nothing or nobody can get me out of all this shit.
Everyday is an escape, it's like trying to 苟且偷生.
Living each day as it passes by, trying hard not think about what comes next.
Reality is at the back of my head, bugging me, but it's just 力不从心.
Time becomes a luxury,but u cant help but still afford to spend them.
U try to study, but all u see are black floating strokes or words.
They dun make sense to u, and nothing goes into ur head.
It's just not processing.
Is the scholarship the culprit? Did i make the wrong choice?
Somehow, my future seems doomed and bleak.
I really dunno what the is wrong with me,
and what can i do to get out of this mess.
I hope i will wake up tomorrow with that damn motivation to fight on.
♥ The Face Of Love
11:20 PM
iAlone
我独自撑着伞,在这不属于我的世界徘徊..
我只是只迷途羔羊..
i am..
100% antiseptic
即使你已经不爱我了
即使你已经忘记我了
即使我已经从这个世界消失
我依然会爱着你
我会去找一个天使让它替
我爱你
我是 RAIN SAMANTHA.
一个超狮子座的狮子座
刁蛮任性,十足疯子
我,再也不会相信童话
; THAT'S JUST ME.
Loves-Hates
我忘了什么是爱,也不想去爱了
哭了,累了,心死了
; 或许,我应该学习怎么去恨
Wishing
; she prayed,pleaded and cried.
to remember what happiness really is..
to remember who the hell i really am..
; To Return To the Past I Once Belonged To
Friends
The Forgotten
Credits