Monday, November 28, 2011;
Into the second week of exams.
Ht9102 tmr and HC260 on thu.
2 more papers to go and it's FREEDOM.
Yes, i know i shouldn't be here,
but i just cant concentrate already.
Guess it's the stress that makes me feel like escaping.
I am kind of in that holiday mood already.
Life havent been a bed of roses recently.
In fact, it has been a bitch.
Everything is everywhere and I cant seem to put everything in order.
Sucks to not have breathing space for myself.
Broke down a few times but i guess i have recovered a little.
Made some decisions and yes, they were hard.
More or less decided to quit my job and take on tuition instead.
Timing would be more flexible and i would have more time to do more stuff.
But still still keeping my fingers crossed.
Tuition has its problems too. Seriously.
But i guess, it's no choice.
U always have to sacrifice something for something.
Glad that i have him around me to support me.
I guess things are pretty fine between us now,
and that's comforting to know.
Hope we will maintain it for awhile. =)
Well, i guess i should go back to reality already.
Wsh me luck because i really need it.
♥ The Face Of Love
4:46 PM
Saturday, November 12, 2011;
插曲 #311
11.11.11
《那些年,我们一起追的女孩》
拉着你去看,想要的只是能找回暧昧时的感觉。
想起那时我们的单纯、幼稚,
想起那段时间的甜蜜、快乐。
刚在一起的我们,要得不多,
可是,得到的却不少。
起码,我们能感受到彼此的重要,能感受到彼此对这份感情的认真与付出。
因为害怕失去彼此,所以一直紧紧抓着不放,努力呵护与维持那刚刚萌芽的感情。
但,人往往都是贪心的。
因为得到了很多,所以要求得更多,架也越吵越多。
不知道为了什么而吵,也不知道有没有解决,
只知道吵了,哭了,和好了,吵了,哭了,和好了。。
感觉就想新传媒的戏,一直重播,一直重播。。
当初的感觉慢慢淡掉了,当初的热情与单纯好像也不在了。
对于彼此之间的认真与付出,我想,也慢慢消失了吧。。
我不知道我们还能在一起的原因是什么,
但感觉上好像不是爱,也不是喜欢,而是一种责任,还是为了那肉体上的安慰?
我不懂,也无法了解,因为你一直选择逃避。
你说,吵完了,就算了,忘了它,别去提了。
你说,心死了,就让它死吧。
你说,抱不住,就别抱吧。
我想,你应该也想说,分手就分手吧。
冷冷的,没有哄,没有想要挽回的意思。
冷冷地刺痛了我的心。
我不知道你是不是累了,不想爱了,不想一起走下去了,
还是,你只是因为害怕失去而选择逃避。
我只知道,你的手没有了当初的温暖,你的拥抱没有了当初的感情。
我好想知道,
如果不把话摊开来说,只选择一直逃避,心结能打得开吗?
我们还能一起一直走到永远吗?
如果你真的能了解我的心,你能知道我现在的感受吗?
暧昧,是最美丽的。。
♥ The Face Of Love
12:44 AM
Monday, November 7, 2011;
三个字:“你很烦”
三个字:“心碎了”
泪了。累了。
♥ The Face Of Love
11:29 PM
iAlone
我独自撑着伞,在这不属于我的世界徘徊..
我只是只迷途羔羊..
i am..
100% antiseptic
即使你已经不爱我了
即使你已经忘记我了
即使我已经从这个世界消失
我依然会爱着你
我会去找一个天使让它替
我爱你
我是 RAIN SAMANTHA.
一个超狮子座的狮子座
刁蛮任性,十足疯子
我,再也不会相信童话
; THAT'S JUST ME.
Loves-Hates
我忘了什么是爱,也不想去爱了
哭了,累了,心死了
; 或许,我应该学习怎么去恨
Wishing
; she prayed,pleaded and cried.
to remember what happiness really is..
to remember who the hell i really am..
; To Return To the Past I Once Belonged To
Friends
The Forgotten
Credits