Monday, January 9, 2012;
the right one is worth the wait.
will u be the right one?
suddenly realized that all u ever think of is yourself.
u are disappointed, u are hurt, u are angry, u are never in the wrong.
so i have to be the one to admit that i was in the wrong even if i was hurt too.
but was i really the one?
call me petty, but is this the way to treat ur girl?
who was the one that let me wait, who was the one that decided not to turn up?
who was the one who decide to put that fucking committee above me?
u slept at 7 in the morning because u were doing yec's stuff.
yet, u were able to wake up on time for yec's event.
but when it comes to me, u overslept.
i waited 40 mins and u thought it was nothing.
i waited the whole morning and u thought it was nothing.
i dun fuck care if u had a headache because u had overslept.
seriously, treating me like dirt all the while?
fuck it. i had enough of the nonsense.
they say both have to give in for the relationship,
but somehow, i dun feel that way.
just because i want to maintain this relationship,
doesnt mean i have to put up with all the shit,
doesnt mean i have to be the only one changing,
losing myself, pride and dignity in the end.
somehow, what yuqi said is true.
if a guy is not willing to change for u when u are dating, he will never change for u.
are u willing to change for me? the answer was no.
will i be able to put up with ur temper and nonsense for the rest of my life?
the answer is no. i will never be able to do so.
so what if there's love? will we be able to live happily ever after?
i seriously doubt so.
yes, u are disappointed, but i am too.
but this time round, i wont be the one giving in again.
i am tired.
so this time round, i will give u the chance to prove how much i mean to u.
it's going to be the biggest gamble.
will i regret? maybe not.
will i be sad & disapointed? maybe yes.
but at the end of the day,
i will be able to find out if u are the right one.
i will be able to find out if i really mean anything to u.
if the answer is no for both, then it will be time to let go.
and i guess, i am ready for it.
i still remember saying that a woman's instinct in dangerously sensitive..
this time, i dun feel anything yet.
but i hope if i do, it will be for the good.
♥ The Face Of Love
11:28 PM
iAlone
我独自撑着伞,在这不属于我的世界徘徊..
我只是只迷途羔羊..
i am..
100% antiseptic
即使你已经不爱我了
即使你已经忘记我了
即使我已经从这个世界消失
我依然会爱着你
我会去找一个天使让它替
我爱你
我是 RAIN SAMANTHA.
一个超狮子座的狮子座
刁蛮任性,十足疯子
我,再也不会相信童话
; THAT'S JUST ME.
Loves-Hates
我忘了什么是爱,也不想去爱了
哭了,累了,心死了
; 或许,我应该学习怎么去恨
Wishing
; she prayed,pleaded and cried.
to remember what happiness really is..
to remember who the hell i really am..
; To Return To the Past I Once Belonged To
Friends
The Forgotten
Credits