Yea..you are right.. that piece of pork contacted me suddenly and did ask me for a patch.. HE DAMN FUCKING BHB DE LA.. i told him that i got a bf..but he said.. "NVM..I WILL WAIT FOR YOU.." zZz..who will believe him la.. and for goodness sake.. like i will leave my panda for him la..zZz.. O please..i am not dumb yo.. i can see who loves me la.. i am no longer that sam he used to know yo..
And o..i won't ask him to fuck the wall.. cause the wall is innocent.. he got no rights to dirty and violate it you know.. although it's just a wall..it has it's rights la.. haha..xp
Eh..like i said.i got no feelings for him..0%.. thus..i confirm gurantee chop chop won't soft heart de la.. so you won't have a chance to smack me outta my sense..^^V
HAHA..AND I KNOW YOU LIKE BERTRAM BETTER LA.. [although you always like to suan him..] AND IT IS SO DAMN OBVIOUS THAT MY BERTRAM IS BETTER THAN THAT PIECE OF PORK LA..!! EVEN THE BLIND KNOWS THAT..x)
Haha..dun worry la.. he won't appear in my life again lorz.. Cause i rejected him straight in the face la.. He asked for my contact number then i told him.. "SORRY..I NEED TO ASK MY BF FIRST..HE MEANS A LOT TO ME.." Haha..then he damn not happy..so he will never appear in my life again..^^V Bertram's current status is so useful la.. Everything use bf as shield jiu can liao..haha..xp Dun you dun need to waste your brain juice to dedicate one post for him. not worth your time and effort la.. haha..x)
HAHA..AWWW..YUQI..I AM SO TOUCHED.. I LOVE YOU TOO.. MUACKS..X3333 HAHA..AND YEA..I LOVE YOU MORE THAN I LOVE BERT.. BUT I STILL LOVE BERT..so bert dun emo ah..xp
haha..yea..he is so old la.. 27 liao..maybe he can just go be a fucking gigolo.. haha..he can prey on those old rich aunties if he want.. But STOP RUINING THE LIVES OF YOUNG GIRLS LA.. dun ruin their fantasy about love like what happened to me because of you.. Bleh..bloody fucking bastard..=X haha..xp
SO YUQI DEAR..DUN WORRY LA.. I WON'T EVER EVER GO BACK TO HIM DE LA. I LOVE YOU.. I LOVE BERT.. THERE IS STILL MEIFANG AND SO MANY BESTIES WHO LOVES ME LA.. SO DUN WORRY..HAHA..x)
♥ The Face Of Love
7:21 PM
Promos are finally coming to an end.. Only left with chinese paper 2 which have to wait till 3/10.. Quite xian actually but at least i have more time to study.. Hoping make up for Chinese paper 1 which i will flunk.. But sad to say..i am not in the mood to study now..
I have gone back to reading 爱情小说.. which means i may start writing soon.. At least i hope to finish my 公主与番茄which has been put aside for so long.. Hoping to start chapter 2 of 爱上失意天使too.. Yea..i am hoping all my inspirations will come back soon.. "come back to mummy..mummy needs you.."
Anyway..something that i dun really and can't handle well is bothering me.. Well..when it comes to relationship.. Sam is a total failure..HAIZ..=X
I can't help but think that we will be drifting apart soon.. Cause there seem to be an invisible wall in between us.. We are like people from 2 different worlds.. Like you said different frequency .. And there are always communication breakdowns.. I dunno why..But i can't help but feel..无奈.. I can't seem to do anything to prevent the breakdowns.. Instead i think i am adding on.. And i think i am gonna break down soon..
我真的有点累了。。对你。。我什么都不了解。。
And that pork talked to me on msn today.. He want to stay in contact again.. which i would be fine with if he didn't tell me those things.. I mean..sorry but i can't accept what you said.. Sorry..but won't give you a chance to jeopardise my current relationship.. he means a lot to me..this relationship means a lot to me even though it's..haiz.. and in fact..you have no rights to tell me those things. Yea..thanks for telling me that i was a nice girl..a nice gf.. At least i know i can be a good gf.. But you didn't cherish it..then i am sorry..but too bad.. And sorry..i dun believe what you said.. What you love me the most..?? What making me the happiest lady in the world..?? HELLO..but i am no longer that 15 year old SAM.. I have grown up..i have seen through you..So sorry.. 我不再是从前的小妹妹。。i know you have a motive.. if you are looking for sex..there is somewhere called geylang.. i know you have to pay..but at least you won't be ruining someone's life.. FOR GOODNNESS YOU ARE ALREADY 27..THINK OF OTHERS WILL YOU.. we can be friends on msn..but sorry..i won't go further than that.. And you are unhappy that i have placed my bf in front of you.. then too bad..you have no rights to be angry anyway.. LIKE I SAID..HE IS MY BF..which means i love him..not you.. zZz..=.= And i rather you get OUT of my life forever.. SO SHOO YOU FUCKING JERK BASTARD FAGGOT.. i dun want to know of your existance ever again..BYE..!!
O man..shit..headache..feeling so sick.. must be that damn weather and the fact i woke up at 12+..=X zZz..i hate this..but still i guess that's all for now.. until next time..Bye..x) back to mugging my 小说s..
AND TO BERT AKA PANDA: i have totally no feelings for him.. 0% feelings..xp SO DUN WORRY..I LOVE YOU.. ALTHOUGH I LOVE YUQI MORE..^^v
Econs today..like finally..IT'S OVER.. But time is always the factor..=X will be damn happy if i can pass.. *bang bang bang*
Chinese paper 1 tomorrow.. *double bang bang bang* Hope i can score well for this one.. Did real badly the last time.. Time manangement..!!!
Gonna go back to work on 1st oct.. Yea..finally..i have income again.. life is really hard without income.. have to scrimp and save like crazy..=X
this post is super random.. there is no link to anything.. lalala..my brain cells are seriously dying.. and i am so ready to enter a poly..
或許吧。。我還在等待。。
♥ The Face Of Love
4:57 PM
Wednesday, September 24, 2008;
History was *bang*.. Yea..i wrote like crazy..words were practically drifting all around.. but its normal for history.. Good news is if i am correct..i think i can pass.. Bad news is if i am out of point..i am screwed.. and i shouldn't have freaking bothered to write so much.. IN conclusion..its 50-50..=X
Econs tomorrow..and off to struggle with it.. hope i can pass it this time round.. i put a lot of effort in arranging the notes.. and hopefully my efforts will pay off..x) IN conclusion..i am off to study econs which i hope i will pass..x) Cause i hope to all H2 subjects which is like freaking impossible..=X *bang bang bang*
IN CONCLUSION..I WANT TO PROMOTE..!!
PS.sorry..i am still stuck in the world of history..
♥ The Face Of Love
6:44 PM
Tuesday, September 23, 2008;
PROMOS SUCKS BIG TIME yes..it really sucks.. i really must agree that it sucks more than o level does.. BANG BANG BANG..
Eyebags are coming out.. Dark cirlces are getting darker.. I need my sleep..But i realized i can't sleep early.. Cause i get more tired the next day..=X
Something is really wrong with me.. MY nature clock has gone KUKU..
Off to struggle with history.. why the fuck must they start cold war..?? got nothing better to do is it..??
why the fuck must we study about sea.?? malaya is more than enough. why bother about the rest.?? esp when we speak different language and can't even understand names.. FUCK IT..I HATE SEA HISTORY..!!
=screwed=bang bang bang= if.only.i.didn't.enter.a.jc. i.wouldn't.be.stuck.with.these.fucking.subjects. and.not.to.forget.i.wouldn't.have.to.worry.about. the.fucking.promos.
♥ The Face Of Love
11:45 AM
Sunday, September 21, 2008;
I guess the previous post was very bad right..?? Sam was being suicidal again..=X Yea..i know..some people..would be damn angry with me again.. but..i guess..Sam can never be not suicidal. The thoughts just come..it is just playing hide-and-seek with me.. I guess..
But dun worry..i won't really do it.. cause i know i still have you guys with me no matter what right..?? maybe..but i made a promise.. and i will keep it..hopefully..x)
Before promos-blues..so some random pics ba.. to prevent myself from entering a emo state..
before and after my haircut..THE NEW SAM..^^My artwork..On panda's hand..this is the red one..Supposed to have another purple one on the other hand..haha..xp The emo kids..=X Promos starting on monday..
Sobs sobs..T.T
i am so dead..T.T
WISHING FOR A MIRICLE..
just let me promote..that's all i ask for..=X
♥ The Face Of Love
11:24 PM
Thursday, September 18, 2008;
Yup..i cut my hair.. And it turns out to be almost like the hairstyle i got in march.. First time i won't nag after my haircut.. ^^V
Looks like i changed again.. After staring at that pic that i took with xiaodi in march.. i changed..maybe it's because of the specs ba.. But i guess..things really change dun they..?? They are never forever.. Nothing lasts forever..even that simple smile..
Really irritated by my hair.. long..frizzy..dry like grass..not as straight as before.. and and damn it...split-ends are attacking..!! ARGH..!! Plus since i was recently not in the mood to condition my hair.. I have decided to snip it off to spare myself the pain..
I want back this hairstyle that i got in march.. short..straight..and refreshing look..x) Let me hope that i can get it back.. AND also..in order to get back my nice nice hair.. i shall be good and condition my hair.. and I WANT TO STRAIGHTEN MY HAIR.. haha..x)
OK..IT HAS BEEN DECIDED AND WILL BE DONE.. IT is just a matter of time..=X
Anyway..CORINE..!!! your name appeared..x)
♥ The Face Of Love
10:53 PM
Sunday, September 14, 2008;
OK..before i start.. HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY ANNE.. I LOVE YOU..x) [this is the reason right..??haha..sorry..i didn't have the habit of dedicating birthday posts..=X]
Anyway..Yipee.. MY PANDA IS BACK..x) Thus..this means that I NEED NOT MISS HIM ANYMORE..!! haha..xp
And what can i say.. that panda is back to his gaming business again.. zZz..=.= and yea..i am so jealous of his game..=X
真的。。我说真的。。 我真的彻底被你打败了。。
♥ The Face Of Love
10:08 PM
Saturday, September 13, 2008;
Yea..MY panda is still in malaysia.. in fact he hasn't been there for 24 hours yet..=(
And although i said i won't miss him.. [which my dumb panda believed..] I seriously miss him now..
I MISS MY PANDA LOADS.. dear ah..i really miss you..
ages before i recieve his next sms.. ages before i get to see him again.. counting down patiently..
and if i ever become EMO suddenly.. you know who the culprit is liao..
喂。。傻瓜。。我是真的很想你。。我爱你
♥ The Face Of Love
10:59 PM
Friday, September 12, 2008;
Panda sort of came to pick my up from school today.. Ok la..he was waiting for me at the BIG DRAIN..x) And yea..HE LOVES MY BAG A LOT LA.. esp my haversack..[or you prefer tote bag..??] wahaha.wagaga.lalala..xp
OK..surprisingly..he wasn't playing his psp.. Well..Surprising because while others is 机不离手,he is psp 不离手..xp And another thing is that he is wearing T-SHIRT..!! Panda dun usually wear t-shirt de la.. He wears polo-tee..esp from GIORDANO.. wahaha..his favourite brand..x)
OK la..dun say him liao..later he cry.. Anyway..he is not wearing polo-tee cause it's in his laggage.. YEA..MY PANDA IS GOING MALAYSIA TOMORROW FOR 2 DAYS.. "Panda..you better be good horz..guai guai horz..and be careful horz..dun get captured by hunters..cause i won't be there to save you..xp]
Haiz..no one to flood my inbox liao.. sobs..T.T..but nvm.. PANDA..I WON'T MISS YOU..SO DUN MISS ME..xp
O ya..and dun forget about chris and your aunties ah.. or not later they go after you will chopper then you know.. btw..i will help you remind chris about what you said de.. in case you say she will forget.. haha..xp
AND yes..dun worry.. I WILL REMEMBER TO STUDY DE..!! and i am off to study history liao..x) see..i very guai right..?? haha..x)
anyway..for your info.. this post is sort of dedicated to my panda.. [therefore it's a bit rubbish..plus i forgot what i wanted to write..] so dun get too touched yea..?? dun cry ah..haha.. but if you missed this out..then too bad.. no more for you liao.. ehehe..^^V
WOOTS..YUQI MY DEAR DEDICATED ANOTHER POST TO ME.. WAHAHA..OMG..I KNOW YOU LOVE ME.. AND SO DO I..X333x) dun worry..he very understanding de..x)
Anyway..i got my new specs today..like finally..=.= Then crazy and bo liao started to ask myself.. How much have i changed over the years..??
From no fringe to got fringe then to my now bangs look alike fringe.. From ponytail all day long to letting my hair down when i am out.. From thin frame specs to no frame specs to my current thick frame specs.. [i think mussolana will get a shock when she sees me..=X] From baagy pants and shirts to jeans and baggy shirt to jean and fitting shirt to shorts and short.. From sandles to sports shoes to high heels to flipflops.. From pinaform[i think]..to knee length skirt to above knee length skirt.. [can't go any shorter or someone will come after me..xp] From super bloated to now.. [ok la..i know now still not very slim la..but you should look at my sec 1 pics..totally OMG..!!]
Yea..from what i can think of.. This are the changes that can be seen.. like a building that has undergone a big revamp.. ok..i know..weird description..zZz..=.=
and yea.. I THINK I KIND OF MISS THE GOOD OLD DAYS.. ESP WHEN I WAS STILL IN SEC SCHOOL.. esp sec 2 when i look like a sweet and nice little girl..x) [you should look at my class photo lorz..haha..xp]
MUACKS DEAR..HAHA..xp
♥ The Face Of Love
5:21 PM
Saturday, September 6, 2008;
BEFORE I START.. YUQI..MY DEAR DEAR.. I LOVE YOU..MUACKS..X3333
Ok..i shall now start my post proper..x)
Was smsing sis for the past few days.. And he reminded me of my dream.. 我的夢想是開一間咖啡屋。。 yea..and you know..i almost forgot about it.. How pathetic can my life be..?? I actually forgot my own dreamm.. *苦笑-ing*
What am i becoming..?? Seriously i dunno..i really really dun.. Studies..work..Stress.. I think i am losing myself.. I kept reminding myself that my aim is to become a lawyer.. Yet i forgot my dreamm.. My dream of setting up a cafe.. A dream i was so proud of.. A dream i was so sure of.. *苦笑-ing*
Lucky i had sis..who remembered everything i said.. Thanks for reminding me about my dream..x) And thanks for agreeing to become my guinea pig. Dun worry..i won't abuse this guinea pig de..x)
Well..i just hope i won't ever forget this dream of mine again.. And i am so looking forward to 6 weeks later.. CAUSE SIS IS GONNA LET ME BAKE IN HIS HOUSE..!! wahaha..x)
夢想。。我找到了。。 我應該不會再忘了吧。。 只希望它﹐不會破滅。。
♥ The Face Of Love
11:46 PM
Friday, September 5, 2008;
WAHAHA..THANKS YUQI FOR THE POST DEDICATED TO ME.. AWWW..I AM SO TOUCHED.. SO I DECIDED TO DEDICATE ONE FOR YOU TOO.. TOUCHED RIGHT..??I KNOW YOU ARE.. WAHAHA..DUN DENY..XP
ALTHOUGH I HAD TO WAIT 20 MINS FOR YOU.. IT WAS OK CAUSE I GET TO KAJIAO YOU.. AND GOT TO CHAT WITH YOU DURING YOUR BREAK.. I MISS YOU SO MUCH CAN..x)
ALTHOUGH YOU MANAGED TO CHEAT 2 BOTTLES OF PINK DOLPHINS FROM ME.. IT DIDN'T MATTER MUCH TO ME.. SINCE YOU ARE MY DEAR.. [anyway..panda paid for the 2nd bottle ma..haha..]
ALTHOUGH I HAD TO RE-QUENE BECAUSE I HAD TO GET THAT PINK DOLPHIN FOR YOU.. I DID IT WILLINGLY LA AS I WAS AFRAID YOU MIGHT GET DEHYDRATED..HAHA..xp
ALTHOUGH YOU FIND THE QUENE LONG.. I FIND IT OK CAUSE I GET TO SEE YUQI AT WORK.. SO TIME PAST QUITE FAST. PLUS I HAD MY PANDA WITH ME WHAT..HAHA..xp
ALTHOUGH YOU TRIED TO SQUEEZE ME IN THE LIFT.. I WAS OK WITH IT SINCE I KNOW I MISS ME A LOT TOO.. I KNOW YOU CAN'T WAIT FOR ME TO HUG YOU RIGHT..??
ALTHOUGH I HAD TO WAIT FOR YOU OUTSIDE THE STORE BEFORE AND AFTER YOUR BREAK.. THANKS FOR SACRIFICING YOUR TIME TO SIT IN THE OFFICE.. AND SQUAT THERE TO CHAT WITH ME.. AND MAKE PEOPLE THINK THAT YOU ARE WEIRD... AND MAKE PEOPLE THING THAT YOU ARE CHATTING WITH AIR.. HAHA..THANKS THANKS..I LOVE YOU..x) AND IT WAS KIND OF FUNNY ALSO..HAHA..
ALTHOUGH YOU ALL KEEP ASKING ME TO TRANSFER.. I STILL THINK YOU SHOULD BE THE ONE TRANSFERRING TO MY BRANCH LA.. CAUSE OF THESE 10 GOOD REASONS..
1.I AM THERE.. 2.YOU GET TO WORK WITH ME.. 3.YOU GET TO SEE ME.. 4.SERANGOON IS IN PURPLE LINE..SO YOU DUN NEED TO SPEND 1 HOUR TRAVELLING.. 5.OUR BRANCH IS SO MUCH SMALLER.. 6.YOU DUN NEED TO REMEMBER SO MUCH THINGS.. 7.WE ONLY HAVE 5 COUNTERS ON THE SAME LEVEL ITSELF.. 8.YOU DUN HAVE TO WORRY YOU ARE AT THE BASEMENT CAUSE WE DUN HAVE ONE.. 9.WE DUN HAVE A SUPER PMS SO.. 10.YOU DUN HAVE TO WORK SO LONG HOURS..!!
HAHA..HOW HOW..?? CONSIDER LA..VERY GOOD LOBANG YOU KNOW. PLUS WE DUN HAVE LELONG SO YOU WON'T HAVE TO BE ALONE..HAHA.. PLUS MY COLLEAGUES ALL VERY FRIENDLY DE.. I DAO-EST OF ALL..AND SINCE YOU MY DEAR..I WON'T DAO YOU.. SO YOU DUN HAVE TO WORRY THAT NO ONE TALK TO YOU.. SO CONSIDER CAREFULLY LA..HAHA..x)
AND LOOKING FORWARD TO SEEING YOU WHEN I AM WORKING. PROVDED YOU KNOW WHERE MY BRANCH IS.. HAHA..xp AND I DUN DRINK MINERAL WATER LA..!! HAHA..xp
I LOVE YOU TOO.. MUACKS..X3333
♥ The Face Of Love
1:56 PM
Finally..after so long..i got to KAJIAO yuqi..x) But i was very good lorz.. Buy pink dolphin for her..Help her put back something..And even help her reply sms la..!! Yuqii..beware..your manager might be in his office watching you..xp
And you know how much i love you le right..? i sacrificed panda for you horz..!! haha..but nvm..you my dear ma..horz..!!
Waited for her break at 3..Then went subway eat.. ok..TPY subway again.. Went there with Corine yesterday..went with yuqi at 3..went with panda at 5.. HAHA..damn dumb right..? but nvm..Subway rocks la..my bro love the cookies..x) Then waited for her to open counter before i go off to meet panda at AMK.. Supposed to meet him at novena at 3 de lorz..=X
But nvm..and you know what...? We from AMK bus 88-ed to TPY again..!! HAHA..i know i am crazy..but i just wanted to kajiao YUQI.. who managed to cheat me of another bottle of Pink dolphin.. Actually..panda paid for the second bottle.. The coins were his..xp
Wahaha..Ok..i forgot what i want write le.. Anyway..I shall go on to dedicate one post for my YUQI.. Wahaha.xp
♥ The Face Of Love
1:52 PM
Thursday, September 4, 2008;
Seriously..you guys are driving me CRAZY.. I REALLY REALLY NEED A BREAK..!!
Not stressing me..?? O please..the stress has been there ever since i was FORCED into a jc..!! You promised NOT to interfere with my life if i enter a jc.. You promised to PAY for ALL my expenses if i enter a jc.. SO you did it WILLINGLY..!! it was a fucking condition that you made.. I DIDN'T BLOODY HELL FORCE YOU TO..!!! SO YOU BETTER BLOODY STOP USING THAT TO THREATEN ME..!!
AND NOW..LOOK AT WHAT YOU ALL ARE DOING..?? YOU BLOODY FUCKING BIG FAT LIARS..!!
Stop pushing me.. Stop trying to push me to the corner of the wall.. Stop it..because i will do it.. I will make you guys REGRET.. I WILL MAKE YOU GUYS RERET FOREVER..
JUST ONE MORE TIME.. AND YOU ARE GOING TO LOSE ME FOREVER..!!