Wednesday, July 29, 2009;
confused.
lost.
for i dunno what reason.
am i just thinking too much..??
maybe i am just feeling empty.
and decided to do something stupid to fill up the emptiness.
which turned out to be hte wrong decision.
seriously.
Oh god.
=X
兜了一大圈，
你从来没离开过我心里。。
没有一天不想着你。。
也没有人能取代你。。
傻。?
就让我傻下去吧。。
♥ The Face Of Love
11:55 PM
Tuesday, July 28, 2009;
it broke.
i thought all was lost,
but when i was about to give up,
i managed to fix it.
what does it mean..??
heaven's will..??
dream on!
♥ The Face Of Love
11:11 PM
Monday, July 27, 2009;
ok..i am supposed to be writeing my SGC but here i am blogging..
without typng a single word that that entry..
=.=
anyway..
THANKS CORINE LOVE FOR THAT POST..
although i really dunno how you got those unglam photos..
many many of them to be exact..
OMG..!!
but i still love you..
haha..=p
went out with meifang yesterday..
eat eat talk talk walk walk shop shop..
so fun luh..!!
thanks for pei-ing me..
you should see how i screamed at the chincillas..
ok..not scream at them..
but start screaming when they start moving on my hands..
ANIMALS not matter how cute or small they are..
i am still scared of them..LOL..
but i really dun mind pei-ing meifang go see..
cause she really love them a lot..
haha..
=)
and horz..got some heartless creep horz.
actually forgot what day it was lorz..
you know who you are..
so dun try to deny..
HUMPHS..
to think i love you so much..
FINE..!!!
now i know the truth..T.T
today got math test.
differentiatiion..my nemesis..
and syf presentaion rehersal...
they were totally fanscinated by huang sheng's hair..
which made me rather speechless..
then we had this little chat on the bus..
and poor yong siang really needs counselling..
but i didn't know he had this side till today..
but he really is a good and responsilbe sl..
although he doesn't know how to put it in a nicer manner..
then sebastian should really relax..
although he is the one who is always asking us to relax..LOL..
cause he is damn stressed over scores and tuners..
he gives you the "stop haunting me for scores" face..
and jumps up when he hears tuner..
LOL..
my cello partner so funny..=p
but he is also a good and responsible qm..
LOL..
but then..stupid pzy..!!!
ok..i forgot what i wanna say le..
LOL..
but i hope my all wishes come true..
=)
and i wanna watch harry potter..
and maybe go to a fortune teller..
LET'S GO ON A MERRY-GO-ROUND..!!
AND HAVE AUNTIE ANNE'S CINNAMON SUGAR PRETZEL..!!
YAY..!!
i love my girlfriends..x333
SO RANDOM. =.=
does she likes him too..??
; edited @11:55PM
nothing has changed.
i am still lost in a crossroad.
i still can't figure out the things on my mind..
why is it so hard..??
maaybe i am just an idiot.
♥ The Face Of Love
11:16 PM
Friday, July 24, 2009;
tired..
stressed up..
=(
so much things left..
yet so little time left..
time has outran me..
=(
i really dun feel like going practice anymore..
it's taking up too much of my time..
=(
currently in debt..
outgoing > incoming..
incoming = zero..
=(
STOP SPLURGING..!!!
♥ The Face Of Love
11:39 PM
Wednesday, July 22, 2009;
&hearts 杏仁奶茶..!!!
♥
anda anda the aunties there still remember me..
YaY..!!
*awww *T.T
so touched..LOL..
haha..=)
gym's also nice..
but like i was telling that uncle..
school's so crazy till i can't find time to go luh..
=(
i think i have to cut down to twice a week only..
=(
but nvm..i still get to go..
hahaha..better than nothing..
LOL.
pre-prelims coming..
OMG.
LoL..so random..
♥ The Face Of Love
10:51 PM
Tuesday, July 21, 2009;
BEEUU.
look at how "beautiful" my results is..
fuck.
econs was a big blow..
i can't believe how lousy i was..
DAMN IT.
history was serve myself right..
SHIT man.
Screw this results..
i am fucking depressed over it..
haven't felt so depressed over results for so long..
but yet there is nothing i can do now..
because i will be damn busy for the next 2 weeks..
co really takes up so much of my time..
maybe gym too..
=X
how i wish there are 48 hours a day..
=(
dang dang dang.
bang bang bang.
TOOT.
and Oh come on..
get a life and stop acting like a baby..
ridiculously ridiculous.
; ROAR..!!
why is my lappy baby throwing tantrums again..??!!
can't you just be good to mummy..??
=(
♥ The Face Of Love
11:44 PM
Monday, July 20, 2009;
Changed blogskin..
although this will be a temporary one..
hopefully the problem surfaced is solved..
and that you guys can read my post now..
=)
anyway..i failed history..
as expected..
=(
; edited @ 11:42PM.
Well..i reflected on the things that are happening..
and i have finally come to a conclusion..
Maybe they are right..
清者自清。
people can say whatever they want since i can't sew up their mouth..
people can think whatever they want since i can't take out their brain..
people can hate me for all they want since i can't stop them from hating me..
but i just have to ignore them..
and things will blow off after awhile i guess..
like i said..
see no evil..
hear no evil..
eat nothing else.
expect for bananas..
12 years of education and this is the first time i am meeting such problems..
the reason being..
i have not been a devoted devotee..
i asked myself how long i haven't prayed sincerely..
i asked myself how long i haven't been to the temple..
i asked myself how long i haven't been chanting the mantras..
and lastly..
i asked myself how many precepts i have broken..
or should i say..
do i still remember what the 5 precepts are..
Ok..this is a serious problem..
i shouldn't have left darma school..
neither should i have thought of changing religion..
*erPhs* aRgh *brwww*
But nvm..i have made up my mind..
i will try to be the devoted devotee again..
so first thing first..
the 5 precepts...!!!
enlightenment. OM
=)
♥ The Face Of Love
7:00 PM
Thursday, July 16, 2009;
I am not god.
neither am i a psychic.
I dun like to play guessing games.
neither am i able to read people's mind.
The fact that i choose to live in my own world.
shows that i dun wanna be a bother.
neither do i wanna be bothered by anyone.
你走你的阳光道，我过我的独木桥。
我们井水不犯河水。
If i accidently stepped on anyone's tail,
i can only say "SORRY".
But it wasn't delibrate because although i may be a bitch at times,
just like everyone else who have their bitchy side,
but dun make me sound like a FUCKING BITCH,
because i hate to be accused of something i am not.
Accusing me of something i am not,
simply means you dun understand me at all.
And if you can't accept me for who and what i am,
I can only still say "sorry",
but just leave me alone,
because i really prefer leaving in my own world.
See no evil..
Hear no evil..
Eat nothing else..
except for bananaas..
I HOPE I HAVE MADE MYSELF CLEAR.
btw this is something i just feel like saying,
means it is meant for everyone and anyone.
I just wanna continue living in my own little world,
peacefully.
; 委屈。
♥ The Face Of Love
11:50 PM
Tuesday, July 14, 2009;
Subway-ed today..
=)
but didn't go gym luh..
=(
Anyway..got baack some results..
So far so good..
Passed math..gp and cll..
like finally i passed cll without moderation etc..
but i am not pinning much hopes for econs and history..
cause apparently..
it's supposed to be bad aka jialat..
=X
yada yada yada..
but that stupid teacher who marked gp compre really @#^&$#@..
realized she was too lenient and started taking the marks away..
teachers are supposed to help us pass..
not help us fail like shit..
zZz =.=
but heng my essay pulled me up..
although that teacher for some reason like to find fault with my language..=.=
or i will really cry my poor little eyes out..
; edited.
cause i really wanna pass my languages..
because i have super high expectations of my languages..
esp GP because it's very very important to me..
and is the key to the entrance of the course i want..
Argh..and another blow to me..
i think the japan trip is cancelled..
cause japan dun want us go..
scared we spread H1N1 to them..
[kyushu no H1N1 case]
=(
ROAR..!!!!
this is so irritating..
i wanna go shopping..!!!!
and we go :
@#$%^&*@*&@%#^#&$&#^#^*&*&#$&@^%$%@%*&@
cause this is seriously a meaningless post..
posted by someone with a meaningless life..
meow meow meow
and OI..
cats means something when they purrrrrrr horz..
dun play play ah..
meow meow meow..
meow meow meow..
meow meow meow meow meow..
EARTHQUAKE..!!!!
♥ The Face Of Love
11:20 PM
Sunday, July 12, 2009;
Forced out of your warm bed and blanket on a rainy day at 8am..
To top it off..it was a beautiful saturday..!!
Can you imagine that..??
It is the same as putting food in front of a starving like crazy..
but not allowing him to eat..
只能看，不能动..!!
Erm..ok..i think this analogy is a bit weird and no link..
But in short..it was OMG..
Really very pissed and 不甘愿..
=(
Not only that..
You have to endure 3 hours of practice after 2 months..
Only to realize how sore your fingers are..
OWW..my poor little fingers..
sobs sobs T.T
That's the price of using a lousy cello..
And for getting GWH..=X
I feel so injustififed luh..
bleh..=(
We really should 敲a meal out of Qu Feng..
A good one to be exact..
But that stupid 小组组长兼首席 seems unwilling to open his mouth..
Because he insist that i should be the one saying instead..
IDIOT..ROAR...!!!
Humphs..All like that bully me one..
=(
Ok..i am drifting away or should i say "意识流"..??
Cause my thoughts are like jumping here and there..??
Muhahaha..lalalala..
and gives you that idiot looking face..xp
i wanna go on a merry-go-round..
and go round and round and round..
and maybe end up puking all around..
O..and anyone interested in getting things from "Strapya World"..??
yada yada baa baa white sheep..
=D
and i feel my butt splitting apart..
*opps*
; edited @ 11:28pm
it seems like there may be some problem with my blog..
cause some can't see my blog posts..!!
AHH..i can't believe it..
what the fuck is going on..??
Maybe there is something wrong with the skin..
But i really dun wanna change it cause..
#1. I just changed it like 2 months back..
#2. I really like this skin..
#3. I spent a lot of time editing and dealing with those html codes till i almost went crazy..
#4. I can't find another skin that i am happy with..
#5. i am just plain lazy..
O well..i guess i will just let it stay this way..
maybbe it's just a temporary error..
hopefully.
=X
小其啊小其，你明明出自我手。。
可是为什么我却没你那么潇洒呢。。??
唉，小其。。。
我瞌的药是不是。。
如果我能像你一样潇洒就好了。。
他如果是tomato就好了。
小其，教我如何勇敢好吗。。??
yada yada meow meow meow..
A cat that looks like a tiger..
Should should it go meow meow meow..
Ro-ow ro-ow ro-ow..
or me-ar me-ar me-ar..??
Ok..what about..
meow ro-or me-ar..???
wahaha..lalalaa..
yada yada meow meow meow..
& i miss my girls a lot a lot a lot..
=(
Prata and ice milo anyone..??
♥ The Face Of Love
12:00 AM
Friday, July 10, 2009;
Class photo or group photo..??
Well..why dun i tell you the story and let you guys decide..??
Cause to me..Class photo equals take as a class..
A big photo with everyone in the class and the CT inside..
then we will have those formal..informal and candid shots kind of thing..
Of course not forgetting benches and standing according to height..
That's a class photo right.??
Ok..what about this..
One class split into 4 groups taking individual group shots
Then put together in 1 page of the yearbook..
Is that considered a class photo..??
Hmmm..Brrww..
O well whatever..it doesn't matter to me anyway..
yada yada Baa Baa white sheep..
But then i still dun get it..
Maybe i shall write a book after i get through it..??
金庸写小说《雪山飞狐》“旨在刻划人性，斥责人性黑暗卑劣的一面”。。
那我的小说就“旨在刻划人性的莫名其妙，斥责人性中的无聊、不理会他人感受，自以为是的一面”。。
Shall add more when i can think of it..
But it's really fucking ridiculous and o.0 ..
yada yada Baa Baa White sheep got no wool..
ArgH..CO resumes tomorrow..
到底有没有天理啊..??!!!
Why is it that all J2s have stepped down except for J2s of Co..???!!!
Getting GWH doesn't mean unfair treatment..!!
This is the total opposite..!!
RoarS..!!!!
=X
super duper wuper xian..
i will miss my dates with 周公..
=(
OK..i forgot what i wanna say..
so..yada yada..
Since baa baa white sheep got no wool..
then there is no 3 bags full of wool for..
the master..the dame and the little boy who lives down the lane..
AWWWWWWW..so sad..
*sobs* =(
time to find your own wool yo..
stop bullying my baa baa white sheepppp..
xp
♥ The Face Of Love
11:14 PM
Thursday, July 9, 2009;
Yo peeps..i am back..
ok fine..who cares anyway right..??
i am better off dead..
OPPS..no la..joking...
xp
MYE was *bang*
A SUPER BIG BLOW..DEAD..
=(
well..the questions knows you..
but somehow you just can't remember who they are..
you know like 他认识你，你不认识他 kind of thing..
so yea..i am damn screwed luh..
=X
Didn't need to go school today..
so stayed home to chiong bleach..
realized how much i missed out..
totally xian-ed..
=X
anyway..found a new drama that seems nice.
Ghost Friends..
finally found something that interest me again..
x)
i guess this month is a heavy month for me..
so much that i feel kind of..
moody..depressed..??
i can't really describe the feeling but i just dun like it..
hopefully things will get better next month..
or when i find things to keep myself busy with..
MAN..I MISS YOU GUYS SO MUCH..
i really need a shoulder for me to lean on..
=(
and i can't help but say this.
i hate it when people keeps pestering me.
idiot.
; edited @ 11:54PM
OMG..i almost forgot..
something to keep me happyyyyy..
I GOT MY SKULLCANDY HEADPHONES..
WHoopEES...^^V
lalalalaalalalalalaalalalalalalalalalalala...
;I think that I was tired
I think I need a new town
To leave this all behind
♥ The Face Of Love
11:29 PM
Friday, July 3, 2009;
seriously.
can he just go bang his head on the wall..??
or did he bang too much and has became an idiot..??
geez.
♥ The Face Of Love
1:29 AM
iAlone
我独自撑着伞,在这不属于我的世界徘徊..
我只是只迷途羔羊..
i am..
100% antiseptic
即使你已经不爱我了
即使你已经忘记我了
即使我已经从这个世界消失
我依然会爱着你
我会去找一个天使让它替
我爱你
我是 RAIN SAMANTHA.
一个超狮子座的狮子座
刁蛮任性，十足疯子
我，再也不会相信童话
; THAT'S JUST ME.
Loves-Hates
我忘了什么是爱，也不想去爱了
哭了，累了，心死了
; 或许，我应该学习怎么去恨
Wishing
; she prayed,pleaded and cried.
to remember what happiness really is..
to remember who the hell i really am..
; To Return To the Past I Once Belonged To
Friends
The Forgotten
Credits