Tuesday, August 18, 2009;
i dunno why..
but i have been thinking about you again..
maybe it's supposed to be always..
i tried to forget you..
i tried to hate you..
i tried to let you go..
but somehow..i just can't..
so many months have passsed..
but it's still like it was yesterday..
i cried till i no longer could..
i thought i was stronger..
i thought i had forgotten..
only to realize that i was just fooling myself..
i tried to numb myself with books..
trying to concentrate with my studies..
trying to excel in them which seems to be impossible..
i tried to empty you out of my mind..
but still your shadow is still there..
always there..and never gone..
i tried tiring out myself with gym.
hoping that i could go to sleep easily..
but i was wrong..
totally wrong..like wtf.
because i can't stop thinking about you..
even though i forced myself not to..
i tried to hold back my tears..
only to realize that even the smallest things now could make me cry..
maybe it was a chance for me to justify my crying..
i tried to laugh even at the smallest thing..
trying to be happy-go-lucky..
only to realize that the smile..
Was it even real..??
even i myself..dun even know..
Dreams..
they never included you..
really..i tried so hard to forget you..
tried so hard that you didn't even appear in my dreams..
but yet..you were never gone..
deep down in my heart..
that special place of yours..
regrets.
but they are now too late..
i really regretted not cherishing those moment together..
but i know i will never regret loving you..
;did you regret,
ever standing by my side?
did you regret,
ever holding my hand?
time will heal..
maybe 1 month..maybe 1 year..maybe 10 years..
who knows..
but i will get over you eventually..right..??
i dunno..whether i really want to..
i lost count of the tears i cried..
i lost count of the times i missed you..
i lost count of the times i wanted to tell you..
i love you.
;but somewhere we went wrong,
we were once so strong.
our love is like a song,
but you won't sing along.
you've forgotten,
about us.
♥ The Face Of Love
11:26 PM
iAlone
我独自撑着伞,在这不属于我的世界徘徊..
我只是只迷途羔羊..
i am..
100% antiseptic
即使你已经不爱我了
即使你已经忘记我了
即使我已经从这个世界消失
我依然会爱着你
我会去找一个天使让它替
我爱你
我是 RAIN SAMANTHA.
一个超狮子座的狮子座
刁蛮任性，十足疯子
我，再也不会相信童话
; THAT'S JUST ME.
Loves-Hates
我忘了什么是爱，也不想去爱了
哭了，累了，心死了
; 或许，我应该学习怎么去恨
Wishing
; she prayed,pleaded and cried.
to remember what happiness really is..
to remember who the hell i really am..
; To Return To the Past I Once Belonged To
Friends
The Forgotten
Credits